My oldest munchkin is 6 today. I know all parents say “oh it seems like just yesterday” bla bla bla. But it’s true. It seems like just yesterday I was rocking myself (yes myself, in a zombie-like trance) to sleep with her on my chest in the rickety old green corner rocking chair. Both of my kids have taught me lessons that are almost unfathomable if I compare my current life to my pre-kid life.
* I am capable of loving constantly and consistently with no interruption. Never in my existence have I been so totally entranced with anything or anyone as I am my two children. They have shown me how to love them, but how to love others more also. People say to find someone who brings out the soul in you. These two do it for me. *
* I am capable of BEING loved. This is a big one for me right now. Even in my darkest, most lonely moments, those little monkeys are there for me. Always concerned if I am upset, or relishing my company during more delightful times. Although they are little, they have inadvertently shown me a support system that can not be compared to anything else. *
* I don’t know as much as I think I do. My oldest, especially, has such a different way of looking at the world. She sees things through rainbow colored glasses and quickly teaches me alternate views of the world. From discussing what the smallest ‘thing’ on the Earth is, to discussions about homeless people, there are not many dull moments. Her perception is fascinating to me. *
* Don’t sweat the small stuff. I also don’t care how cliche this sounds. There was a time when my house was perfect, the laundry was done, and everything appeared very ‘put together’. That era is gone. And I am a lot happier person for it. I used to spend so much of my time on these things that didn’t matter and I WAS known to cry over a glass of spilled milk. What a waste of time. My days are much better spent playing and snuggling and telling bedtime stories. I can tell you what I HAVE cried over lately - the fact that they won’t want to snuggle me soon.*
Today we will eat cake, open more presents (excessive), and wear unicorn party hats. And it's going to be epic.